Month: May 2013

So my blog stalkers are still stalking…..First Anniversary of Being “Found”

Thanks to toying with the HTML of the template of my former Blogspot blog ( to get my updated redirection plugin to work–something happened so I can now see hits on Google Analytics for my Blogspot blog even when the visit was properly redirected to this Wordpress version.

This allowed me to finally know for sure if my blog stalkers are still trying to follow me to this blog.

The answer is yes, they are.  A verified attempt to visit my blog was logged on Saturday night [May 11, 2013].

It also confirms my suspicion that without hits showing up in Analytics for my Blogspot, I’d never know if they were trying to get in here or not, because I’ve blocked them at the server level, before they get to my security plugins which also block them and show attempted visits from unwanted visitors.

They obviously would have been redirected here, yet my plugins have logged no attempted visits from them.  I’m very happy to see the power of the blockers I now have access to, thanks to switching to self-hosted Wordpress.

I find it both perplexing and troubling that they are still trying to get in.  There are no new posts at the Blogspot blog, haven’t been for a couple of months.

They know the Wordpress blog exists; I’ve seen them search for it in Yahoo but come to the Blogspot blog instead, probably because they were blocked.

They must know by now that they are blocked.  Yet they keep trying to get in.

It was one year ago Sunday [May 12, 2012] that they found my blog and began stalking it, uninvited, unwanted when their behavior began to creep me out and they began to threaten and harass me.

If it had not been for their creepy and harassing behavior, I might have been okay with them reading it, because a part of me wanted that chance to tell them off, and to present to them the truth of their actions and how they hurt others.

I was on my way to finally feeling peace about the whole situation, and moving on, away from the pain and constantly wanting to say the truth to them, because that truth had finally been said.  But then they threatened me and began stalking me, proving themselves to be sociopaths.

I still wonder what got them to look at the blog in the first place, some two or three years since either of them had visited it.  A mutual friend had my blog on her roll, but I have not seen her visit it since early 2011, and I never told her who the later posts were about.  I hadn’t even posted on Facebook that my blogs of late 2011 existed.

Now, in my 2012 stats I see another visitor, who googled “histrionic narcissistic platonic friend,” and saw three of the very same posts seen by my stalkers that night–and spent three hours on one of the posts, a post which was very short.  Could this person have tipped them off?  I suppose I’ll never know.


Defanging the Narcissist

[Update 5/12/15: This is one of my most popular posts.]

From How to Make the Narcissist Powerless to Affect Your Life by Melanie Tonia Evans:

Have you been in a situation where you were completely obsessed, terrorised and emotionally crippled with the fear of what the narcissist was going to do next, and then your worst fears came true?

The smear campaign hit with maximum effect, the phone call to your boss discrediting you happened, and the threat the narcissist was holding over you was executed with ruthless intensity.


Have you ever had the experience of releasing the fear of what the narcissist could do to you, and instead focused on aligning with positive beliefs such as: No one has the power to control me or affect my life, and I am the powerful creator of myself and my happiness, and then as a result the narcissist could do nothing, and / or stopped terrorising you?

It seemed that effortlessly no-one believed the narcissist’s slander, the phone call to your boss was dismissed as garbage, and the threat the narcissist proclaimed to do never came to fruition.

Why yes, yes, I have.  To all of it.  Well, most of it:

1) Yes, I was obsessed, terrorized and emotionally crippled with fear of what the narcs (Richard and Tracy) would do next, and that they would carry out their threats.

2) Yes, they did just what I did not want them to do, forcing their presence on me because I told them to stay away.  Yes, they smeared me; first, in 2010 with Tracy’s Facebook post, then in 2012 when they told some friend I don’t know, lies about me.  Yes, they spoke to my priest before I had a chance to, saying who knows what.  Yes, they did follow through with their threats to show up at my church–but only partially.  They said they’d show up all the time, but they did not.  They threatened to sue, but did not.

3) I am working on releasing the fear.  I found a way to get away from them at last: By keeping up the blog no matter what they think, and then (when they changed Internet providers and I could block them without blocking everyone else with the same dynamic IP address) switching to self-hosted Wordpress.  It is a much better place, where I could block them at last–and without losing my Google rank or SEO.  As a result, the terror campaign of my stalkers has been greatly diminishing, turning into nothing, as the fear clears from my head and I see them defanged.

4) No one but their minion, “Chia,” seems to have believed their slander, that I’m aware of.   Rather, I have been believed by many, by the ones whose opinions were most important to me.  I have been believed by their ex-friend Todd and by others.  I have seen no evidence of my priest judging me adversely after my stalkers spoke to him.  They only came to my church a few times, then stopped; their threat against me never happened.

If they even tried to find somebody to take the case, nobody would because their threats were groundless and they have no way to pay for it when they lose.

Also, maybe they discovered that libel suits can take years and thousands of dollars in lawyer fees, that their own lives would be poked and prodded into as well as mine as part of the process of discovery, and that the whole thing would be appetizing to the media because the lawsuit would be on the public record.

And all over a personal blog with no identifying details and no falsehoods, something millions of people use as a diary of their lives?

More from Evans:

If you dwell on, obsess over, have angst, fear, terror, panic or anxiety in regard to the narcissist in your life – over any topic whatsoever – the narcissist receives an energy feed, and powers up to throw back at you exactly the results of your fear and pain.

I cannot tell you how many clients I have worked with, as well as received reports from individuals starting the NARP Program, who initially were stuck in custody, settlement, and No Contact battles, and were so anxious, so consumed with Post and Complicated Traumatic Stress disorder and their inability to think straight and function, that their life was like a continual war-zone.

Their narcissist seemed like an unrelenting terminator, a dog with a bone, doing everything and anything to rip their lives apart.

I too have lived this experience exactly…

Sadly, it is synonymous with the normal narcissistic abuse experience.

But truly, it does not have to be this ‘normal’ way.

Part of my awakening to how to heal narcissistic abuse, was the understanding that the narcissist is a magnified manifestation of our fears.

Therefore if you have the ‘normal’ charges of fear, pain and distress running, the narcissist fuels up and hits you like a freight train.

But what happens, when the fear and pain shifts?



That’s what happens.

Truly…I am not kidding you. I have seen it so many times, there have been too many ‘coincidences,’ too many things fall into place for the person shifting out of fear, and too many narcissists who have fallen over, given up, and failed….

These miracles include every topic imaginable, such as property, children turned against the non-narcissistic parent, smear campaigns, intimidation and any other nasty drama that narcissists do.

Why is it property settlements are locked in battle for three years and then the narcissist signs the agreement one week after the shift happens?

Why is it children who have not spoken to the non-narcissistic parent for 5 years make contact to reconnect out of the blue after the shift occurs?

Why is it people who have been poisoned by the narcissist all of a sudden turn their back on the narcissist and seek allegiance with you when your pain is released on this?

Why is it the stalking, the terror campaigns and threats stop and never recommence after the fear has been transformed and replaced with safe and empowered beliefs?

I have not had a chance to read through this blog post yet, but it promises to be very helpful.

I have noted how setting up my Wordpress blog, blocking my narcs from it, and redirecting all my Blogger traffic here, has led, finally, to their presence on my blog ending.  They have tried to come here, but could not.

They appear to have stopped obsessing over getting on my blog; I have not seen verified evidence of their attempts, in (I believe) a month!  These are people who could not go two weeks without checking my blog!

I have not seen them at church since August.  I have not even seen them on the street since January.  I am starting to really believe the many empowering statements I have told myself over the years.  Life is getting back to normal!

I am free!


Dodging a Bullet: Friends of Narcissists Who Are Also Narcissists: Or, Discovery on Richard’s Friend Chris

So a few days ago, I remembered Chris, one of the friends from Richard’s circle who lived in my town and became my friend, too–until he unfriended me one day on Facebook.  This was after moving away and after my husband and I broke off relations with Richard and Tracy.

Chris had always seemed like a nice guy, and he agreed with me about child abuse.  I secretly hoped he would help influence Richard and Tracy to stop abusing their kids, when they saw I was not the only one who felt this way about slapping kids upside the head.  He is mentioned several times in my story which starts here.

I knew he was a political kook, into wacky extreme-right-wing conspiracy theories, and die-hard Libertarian/Constitutionalist/Tea-Partier.  His Facebook posts became increasingly politically paranoid and crazy.  But still, he seemed like a nice guy.

Our only link to him after he moved away was Facebook, and I had stopped chatting with him online like I used to, because he was so close to Richard.  So the unfriending led to losing touch.

I wondered what had happened to him in the 2 years since the unfriending (which had also led to my post Fighting the Darkness, as I wondered if Richard had turned him against me as he turned me and others against Todd).

So I Googled Chris.  To my shock, the very first hit that came up–with his real name and photograph, so I knew this was the same guy–was a blog post calling him a psychopath!

The post was on a blog for the anti-government community experiment, which Chris had left our state to join.  It was posted last September, several months after my stalkers found my blog.  The post was written by a guest writer, not the owner of the blog; the owner of the blog called Chris “someone of whom to beware.”

The guest writer, “Sherry,” titled it “Working With a Psychopath.”  (!)  Sherry wrote of her own experience with Chris; her husband, “Wayne,” had run for local office, and hired Chris as his campaign manager.

They soon became disturbed by Chris’ campaign tactics.  Not only do people in that area prefer clean campaigns, no mud slinging, unlike what my state allows from time to time–but Chris was accused of being pushy and aggressive while talking to voters.

One woman was so upset that she complained to Wayne, and was offended by how Chris derided the respected town manager.  There were more problems which I won’t detail here; Wayne tried to sort them out with Chris, but got shut out.

Chris directed Wayne to write a “letter bomb” (position paper) and give it to Chris for “tweaking.”  Wayne wrote a positive letter about what he planned to do; Chris turned it into mudslinging against the opposition and others in government.

Wayne refused to send this letter, said he would now run the campaign his own way.  Because Chris could not accept that, he relieved Chris of his duties.

Chris began a smear campaign against Wayne and Sherry to other campaign volunteers, and to the community using a “letter bomb” which alleged Wayne was “mentally unstable” and unfit for the office.

The same day he distributed this letter, Wayne, Sherry and volunteers were also out and about, campaigning.  Sherry wrote that Chris “decided that he would try to intimidate” them, by driving slowly past them four separate times.  She wrote, “Now, I’m no expert on the law, but I would say that’s borderline stalking.”

On election day, Chris drove around the polling places with a sign on his van reading, “Re-elect a SANE [official]!”  Then after the election, he kept going, smearing Wayne and Sherry to people in their community experiment, to people who had nothing to do with the campaign.

Sherry called him “a poison flowing into the veins of the liberty movement,” who needs to be cut out of it “before he can do real damage.”  She wrote that many others have ostracized him already.

Chris saw the blog post, and responded.  He posted a link to his side of the story and the “letter bombs” he wrote, but those no longer exist on the Web, so I could not review them.

Even though he had scathing words against the opposing candidate during his stint as campaign manager, he now wrote that the opponent “is a good man” and intimated that Wayne “is itching to create controversy and problems.”  He blamed Wayne for losing because he wouldn’t follow through with “the plan.”

In another forum, he again defended his actions, writing about doing what’s right, that it’s not “negative campaigning” but “telling the public the truth,” and accusing Sherry of “false statements,” but saying he wasn’t going to “waste” his “time” by explaining them all.

But–If Wayne was so terrible, and the opposition so much better, then where was Chris’ “honesty” in the condemning words he wrote/spoke against the opposition?

He also claimed to “have run two successful campaigns before this one.  My own and [another one].”  Wait–WHAT?  I just caught him in a lie: He LOST his own campaign!  I know because that campaign was here in my town in 2010!  How is that “successful”?

There’s more, too.  For one, he has a habit of not paying his taxes or court judgments, and still (from what I can determine from online court records) owes thousands of dollars for claims going back to 2007!

Also, back in 2005, he was accused on a web forum of being a con artist, trying to steal a certain long-established depository of files used by computer geeks (I can’t name or describe this further without making it possible for anyone to Google the depository and find his real name), and asking for donations to keep this depository running, which would actually go to his computer-based business.

He had no connection to this depository, which, by the way, did not go down, despite fears to the contrary.  He kept claiming he was being misunderstood, even apparently threatened a libel suit at some point, but his threat was laughed at.  And, well, when I reviewed all the posts I could find on the subject, whether he meant to con or not, it was very easy for any reasonable person to take it as a con game.

There is no question this is the same guy I knew, as his full name, location, and company name (which I recognized from an e-mail address and some information he had on Facebook), all matched Chris.  He posted other things as well, in an unrelated forum thread, which got people calling him clinically paranoid.

My husband pointed out that Chris’ website giving his side of the campaign story is completely gone from the web, no caches or even anything on the Wayback Machine.

Meanwhile the blog calling him a psychopath–with his real name and photograph–are still up.

Given how potentially libelous such a blog post would be if it is false, why is it still up while Chris’ website is gone?  Especially when Chris had threatened a libel lawsuit to the 2005 accusations of theft and conning (which are still on the Web as well)?

I also noted the similarities in his behaviors to those of Richard and Tracy:

1) Threatens a libel suit (for being accused in 2005 of running a con) even though nobody appears to have actually lied, and accuses a person (Sherry) of “false statements” while not bothering to explain them.  Not explaining what is false is considered by the Popehat blog as a mark of a false legal threat:

Third, remember my mantra: vagueness in a legal demand is the hallmark of frivolous legal thuggery. Mr. Overstreet does not specify exactly what part of the Yelp review is false. Bogus legal threats rarely do.

He intimates that Casey Movers is being criticized for following “federal moving procedures,” but does not explain.

If you look at Ms. Buckley’s review, and his response, you’ll see that she complained of the amount her parents were offered for compensation of damages, and Mr. Overstreet’s response explaining insurance rates — but you won’t see anything Mr. Overstreet has called out as a specific false statement of fact.

2) Drives past the former associate more than once, making that person believe they’re being stalked and intimidated.

3) Runs what appears to be a con.

I began to wonder a couple of things: Did Richard tell Chris about my blog?  Did Chris suggest a libel suit?  Did Richard (or Tracy, I couldn’t see the driver) not accidentally, but deliberately drive past me the second time, to match the intimidating behavior used by Chris to Wayne and Sherry?

In various places, I’ve read that the friends of narcissists are usually sycophants, innocent dupes under the spell of the narcissist, or narcissists just like them.  I always thought Chris was an innocent dupe like me, but now I fear he’s just as bad as Richard.  That not only do they match each other in political kookery, but in sociopathic behavior as well.

After all, how well did I really know the guy?  I never met him before Richard invited him to a party, and only saw him occasionally after that.

So my husband and I dodged a bullet when Chris unfriended us on Facebook.

[Update: So Chris has re-friended me on Facebook]