Ever since I blocked the Unnamed Blogger (UB) last night, I’ve been getting steadily better. I still suffer from physical effects of last week’s anxiety, but I can concentrate better on other things now. I could swear this past week has been a blur; it feels like Tuesday was yesterday. It’s been a blur of fear and anxiety.
As I told my husband, it feels just like when my narc abusers found my blog and threatened me, all over again. The constant fear and dread of what will happen next, every move you make being watched. But since I blocked UB, UB has made no attempt to come back in through other means. So far.
Just knowing someone else can affect me like this, tells me UB is definitely a narcissist, turned into one by all that hatred of narcissists. Yet another reason not to let hate of the narc consume you.
I hope that will be the end of it now. I have so much on my plate: my dad’s health declining, house repairs, a cat who probably has cancer but we can’t afford the CAT scan to be sure ($1000!), church fundraiser, primary election, plus all the registration etc. for a child going back to school soon.
I don’t have time or space in my head for a new stalker.
It actually makes me feel a weird sort of fondness for my own pet stalkers, since at least they turned into just a little buzzing in the background. They’ve been well-behaved for years now. 😉