As I revise and sticky old posts on abuse, I realize: Now it’s about the writing

For weeks or maybe months, I’ve been revising old posts and sticking them to the front page, to bring them to the attention of my readers.  This is essential because my website and blog have been around for years, and have gone through a few format changes.

So there are hundreds of posts and pages, on various subjects, but the older ones are full of formatting issues.

Also, in the “olden” days I tended to write super-long paragraphs, which needed splitting for online readers.  A screen is not like a book….

I don’t have 16 hours a day to spend fixing the formatting, so instead I can do it one post/page at a time.  Slowly but surely, my pages and posts are looking sleek, with lots of white space, no weird formatting, and updated links.

And in the meantime, as I revise two- and three-year-old posts on the Richard/Tracy abuse story and their subsequent stalking of me, I notice something:

I don’t feel that way anymore.  I don’t connect with the grief-filled posts, except in memory.  Even the anger has tempered somewhat.  I have no fear of Richard and Tracy.  It’s just a reminder of how I once felt.

It’s amazing how far I’ve come since those posts were written.  And I can thank blogging for that.  It really does help heal.

So the reason for revising and reposting them, is all about the writing now.  It’s about polishing up the posts to make them more readable, and increasing their visibility through links to other blogs.

Because out there are thousands of people in the same spot I was two years ago, or three years ago, looking for stories like mine to help them along the way.

Perseverating on the abuse and feeling like I can’t move on, is in the past now.  It’s moving forward–but with all sorts of back-material which can still help many readers.  And I see them coming in all the time, along with the occasional subscriber.