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  • Reblog: Why Is the Church Silent about Anti-LGBT+ Violence in Russia? | Public Orthodoxy
  • RIP Pippin
  • Reblog: The Narcissistic Continuum: The Appropriation of “No Contact”: When Narcissists use “No Contact” against YOU
  • Reblog: The Narcissistic Continuum: A Traumatic Election: Emotional Overwhelm & Voice
  • The Novel Form of “Metropolis”: Review, Part 2 (Repost from 2016)
  • My Latest Music Favorites: March 2017
  • Reblog: My Fundamentalism of the 1960s Has Changed for the Worse—Considerably Worse | Jesus Without Baggage
  • My Own Son Thinks I’m Weird! Sigh….. :) (Childhood Stories)
  • On cyber obsession
  • O kitty, why do you spurn the litter box? (A Poem)
  • Chased by Storm Chasers: South Dakota, 2001 (Repost from 2012)
  • The Novel Form of “Metropolis”: Review, Part 1 (Repost from last June)
  • Anti-Muslim and anti-black language is disgusting: There is a better way (Repost from 2015)
  • Reblog: WordPress Used as Command and Control Server in 2016 Election Hack
  • Reblog: 10 things people say to stalking survivors — Amy Neises
  • Reblog: DABDA | Grace for my Heart
  • Re: The current political situation
  • Repost: Exposing Narcissists/Abusers: Why We Should Do It
  • Research, Wagner, and Plot beginning to come together
  • More information is coming out about Russian espionage
  • Reblog: Lynch Mob 2.0
  • The weird world of online psychopathy
  • From 3 years ago: New friends healing wounds of ex-friend
  • Another update from Wordfence calling BS on Russian hacking
  • WordPress Security Plugin cautions us about evidence of Russian hacking
  • Response to a story of sexual trauma found online
  • Is that long-feared war with Russia on the horizon?
  • “Finding out people you love have a dark side”: My post from March 2012
  • Now my blog shows up in the WordPress Reader!
  • I have set up a Twitter account
  • I have made a new author page
  • One way that NVLD affects marriage
  • Repost: Whether and when to forgive an abuser
  • Repost: Existential Crisis and Despair: Loss of God and Friendship
  • Research first or write first?
  • New Headers for my site
  • Hypnosis and Trump
  • Reblog: Vets beg forgiveness for war crimes against tribal nations
  • Repost: My Depression After Abuse
  • New page: My Drawings
  • My site has a new look
  • There, now the site has an SSL, dang it
  • Made the magic number: 200,000 hits
  • Remember Benny Hinn prophesying the downfall of Castro?
  • Some Updates on Life etc.
  • Reblog: “Stomping on Eggshells” and “Why White People Freak Out When They’re Called Out About Race”
  • Neo-Nazis and KKK crawling out of their holes….
  • Took first chapter of my novel to Writer’s Club
  • Now I read that Trump is terrified and Obama has to hold his hand….
  • A song that fits the times: “The World Today” by Blue Ocean Dream
  • Trump supporters accuse opposition of overreacting…
  • A Plea to End the Violence
  • Dedicated to Trump…
  • Why we are scared of a Trump Presidency
  • Feeling proud of our Millennials right now
  • Reblog: “Hillary Clinton’s devastating loss spells heartbreak for women everywhere”
  • Reblog: “This Shambling Corpse/American Democracy Died Tonight.”
  • Reblog: Lucky Otter: “So. Trump Won.”
  • Looks like this country is going back to the Dark Ages….
  • (Repost) Shame and Purity Culture: My Take
  • Mel Gibson says sequel to “Passion” will include Christ’s descent into Hell (Harrowing)
  • Current Song Obsessions
  • #notokay No, Trump, not just locker room banter: My own sexual assault / harassment stories
  • Watching the fallout over Trump….
  • “Betty, Girl Engineer” and 1950s sexism
  • Reblog: “Disastrous Duck by Wisconsin Supreme Court! Walker Off Scot-Free?”
  • Reblog on toxic troll culture online–and rise of Trump
  • Experience makes my writing richer
  • Are we being too harsh on lower-level narcissists?
  • The undercurrent of grief after Dad’s passing
  • So glad I switched hosting providers
  • Sticking with self-hosting, v. 2 (Links should work properly now)
  • Argh! Sick of self-hosting!
  • Two words: F**K CANCER.
  • My gosh, now my site is running like a dream!
  • About pondering moving from self-hosted to Blogger: Next Morning
  • Pondering moving back to Blogger
  • Improving….
  • I think I’m doing a bit better.
  • What a sucky week….bad news
  • Beware: Sometimes even the narcissist bloggers are themselves narcissists
  • Just Finished Slaughterhouse Five
  • Trump is lawsuit-happy–common narcissist/abuser trait
  • On last week’s shootings of and by police
  • Healing from abuse by friend: “Our movie” no longer stings
  • Disgusted by neo-Nazi Holocaust deniers on Youtube
  • My newest Industrial music addiction: Tanz Mit Laibach
  • Reblog: “40 Years of Goth” video
  • Former FBI special agent on right-wing extremism–and my ex narcissist-friend
  • Life is good now: Looking back at 6 years ago
  • The Novel Form of “Metropolis”: Review, Part 2
  • The Novel Form of “Metropolis”: Review, Part 1
  • Comfort in not being alone dealing with my narcissist abusers
  • I think my site’s working again….
  • My Site is Having Hiccups.
  • Can I Opt-Out of Wisconsin’s Lawsuit Against Obama?
  • On the Katrina Kennedy-Flores Video
  • Twitter Campaign on Emotional Abuse
  • More on abuse, isolation and ditching friendships because of a jealous spouse
  • A few thoughts on Trump getting the nomination
  • Response to Lauren Shifflett’s story of sexual trauma by church leader
  • 3 Reblogs on narcissist traits
  • Okay, maybe not finished with 1st draft yet: Getting into narc’s head
  • Tracy Sighting….
  • Reblog: The Adoration of the Konvertsky
  • I made this meme about the GOP primaries….
  • Reblog: “I May Have Been Wrong About Obama”/Possible New Third Party?
  • Now my church is officially merging with my abusers’ church…..
  • Reblog: “Why No One Should Talk About ‘Emotional Adultery’ Ever Again”
  • Shame and Purity Culture: My Take
  • Reblog: What Christians Get Wrong About Sexual Abuse
  • Reblog: Lenora Thompson: “‘Victim’ Isn’t a Dirty Word, so Don’t Revictimize Me!”
  • Music and my creative process
  • Finished with the first draft of my novel about obsession
  • Perception of abuse victims as either weak or liars
  • Coming face to face with my dad’s cancer
  • My son’s Lego Dalek
  • Obsessed with Writing Novel About Obsession
  • Had another one of those dreams this morning…. (forgiveness?)
  • Reblog: It’s not just Trump: Islamophobia in America is spiraling out of control
  • As of tomorrow, it will be two months since my stalkers’ last visit here….
  • Juvenilia: Back in the Stalag (An Unwilling Time-Traveler, Part 4)
  • Reblog: Stop telling me to forgive my abuser
  • Reblog: Justice for the narcissist’s victim
  • Juvenilia: Hiding in the Bavarian Alps (An Unwilling Time-Traveler, Part 3)
  • My narcissist: inspiring the rewrite of my old novella
  • Reblog: “It’s Okay not to be Okay” after Narcissistic Abuse
  • Juvenilia: Madge’s forbidden romance with Stalag guard (An Unwilling Time-Traveler, Part 2)
  • Ten years since I first met my abusers…..
  • A few blog posts on sharing Communion with your abuser
  • Juvenilia: Sink den Bismarck! (An Unwilling Time-Traveler becomes the Nazi’s assistant), Part 1)
  • The Burning of St. Louis Church Distresses Fond du Lac
  • Bafflement about Thank-You Notes
  • Some Awesome Things heard in the Lamentations Service (Good Friday evening) during Holy Week
  • Was Cassie Bernall a martyr?
  • Reblog: What happens when you send your N “the letter”
  • Fraternities, Sororities, Masonic Lodge
  • Great news: Walker is out of the race
  • Epilogue and Apology from My Abuser Phil–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–May 1995, Part 4
  • On Listening to Your Gut (sexual predators, narcissists, abusers, etc.)
  • My religion being used to justify hatred–Offends Me
  • Abram’s Daughters: Series by Beverly Lewis
  • Reblog: How to deal properly with abusers posing as Christians
  • Evangelistic Trips to Already Christianized Countries
  • Prevalence of porn leading to teenage girls forced into anal sex
  • When the Peanut Brittle House tried to kill me
  • Huge Site Restructuring: Recent story of abuse moved
  • Graduation: Trapped at school–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–May 1995, Part 3
  • What is Worship?
  • One simple reason why screaming at children is not effective
  • Defending my Thesis; Graduating with Honors–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–May 1995, Part 2
  • Is Wine from the Devil–or a Gift from God?
  • Northerners defending the Confederate flag in my Facebook newsfeed?
  • Peace with My Abuser, Phil–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–May 1995, Part 1
  • More evidence of Scott Walker’s corruption, and the brain drain of teachers caused by Act 10
  • What about Missional Churches, Simple Churches, Fluid Churches, Organic Churches, House Churches or Neighborhood Churches?
  • Introvert shaming
  • My Priest has retired–and realizing my church no longer connects to my narcissist
  • Just a quick note celebrating the Supreme Court’s decision
  • Or should I move back in with my parents?–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–April 1995, Part 6
  • Just saw “Wall Street”: Oh, how familiar Gekko is
  • Does the Pill cause abortions, or is that just another weird Internet or extremist right-wing rumor?
  • SCA hippies; college senioritis: anxiety!–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–April 1995, Part 5
  • On the Didache
  • Cugan Comes Back–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–April 1995, Part 4
  • Lesson on friendship learned from All in the Family
  • On Ecumenism (Inter-Denominational Christian Dialogues)
  • Big Blog Milestone: 100,000 hits
  • After Breakup: Phil’s Return and Trolls–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–April 1995, Part 3
  • The Uncreated Energies of God: An Ancient View which is in the Bible, yet new to the West
  • Cugan breaks up with me–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–April 1995, Part 2
  • Musings on Sin, Salvation and Discipleship
  • Easter with Cugan’s family and SCA–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–April 1995, Part 1
  • What About Predestination?
  • Could personality disorders explain the mean girls I know?
  • Cugan: a vast improvement over Phil–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–March 1995, Part 13
  • How could a loving God who prohibits murder, command the genocide of the Canaanite peoples?
  • My First SCA Event–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–March 1995, Part 12
  • About that new video of a Baltimore mom smacking up her son: white praise linked to oppression
  • Halloween: Not the Devil’s Holiday!
  • Angels and Demons: Is “This Present Darkness” by Frank Peretti a divine revelation or fiction?
  • A Conversation with Oscar Wilde–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–March 1995, Part 11
  • Should we criticize our brethren’s artistic or evangelistic attempts? Or, how *should* we evangelize, then?
  • Some thoughts on my sociopathic stalkers as I revise an old post….
  • A little thing about health insurance debates….
  • To my subscribers:
  • Welcome to visitors from–what, three reblogs now?
  • Make my story of narc abuse into a novel?
  • The Romance of the Rosebud (Dream Vision Parody)–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–March 1995, Part 10
  • The Goddess of Pleasure and Salt–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–March 1995, Part 9
  • Why do bad things happen?
  • Scott Walker is looking more and more corrupt…..
  • The payoff of sharing my abusers’ sociopathic e-mail: Part 2 of my “Stalked” series has been pinned
  • Loony Roommies and Flying Gargoyles–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–March 1995, Part 8
  • On Spiritual Abuse
  • Another site giving the dangers of slapping kids upside the head
  • On Breaking Up with Kindness–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–March 1995, Part 7
  • On Women in Marriage/The Church
  • Just read something about being “truly Orthodox”….
  • First Date with Future Hubby Cugan–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–March 1995, Part 6
  • On Dr. Richard Eby and others who claim to have been to Heaven
  • Walker is giving Wisconsin PTSD
  • Marking an anniversary: reporting my bullies to Social Services
  • On Pat Robertson
  • Meeting the elusive Speaker–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–March 1995, Part 5
  • For the first time in five years, my once-friend Richard,
  • Anti-Muslim and anti-black language is disgusting: There is a better way
  • On Name it and Claim It Doctrine, Prosperity Doctrine, Faith-Formula Theology, Word-Faith Theology, Positive Confession Theology, Health and Wealth Gospel, and whatever else they call it
  • Why I post my abuse experiences
  • The Avenger Starts a Flame War (Sociopathic Female Bullies Pt 2)–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–March 1995, Part 4
  • On Literalism in Biblical Interpretation
  • Seeing my other ex–in healed friendship–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–March 1995, Part 3
  • On the Idea that God has Someone in Mind for You
  • On Creationism
  • Abusive ex finds my online haven; Meeting a hit man–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–March 1995, Part 2
  • On Abortion Protests
  • On the Republican Party
  • On The Relevance Doctrine, i.e. Marketing Churches to Seekers
  • Online Shenanigans–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–March 1995, Part 1
  • On The Purpose-Driven Life
  • On The Message Bible
  • On the “still, small voice” and Charismatic sign gifts
  • College-Style Living–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–February 1995, Part 9
  • On Christian Music
  • Raising One’s Hands in Worship
  • Cat and Dog Theology
  • Persephone’s Own Outrageous Stories of Phil’s Abuse–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–February 1995, Part 8
  • God’s Purpose (Supremacy of God Doctrine)
  • On Orthodox praying with non-Orthodox
  • Torn between FIVE Men! Me?–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–February 1995, Part 7
  • End Times and Christian Zionism
  • Furious at the Judgment on Nonie’s Morning Sickness (My Five Wives)
  • On church buildings
  • Is Christmas/Easter a Pagan Holiday?
  • Reflecting on A Year Ago….
  • The Love Rectangle–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–February 1995, Part 6
  • Is everybody going to Hell except Christians?
  • Hell and the Nature of God
  • Tithing
  • Torn Between Three Men as Catherine pushes me toward Cugan–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–February 1995, Part 5
  • Are Spiritual Marriages “Real”?
  • Sociopathic Female Bullies Pt 1: Before Tracy, There Was the Avenger–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–February 1995, Part 4
  • Technical Virginity and the Christian Single
  • Learning my ex Peter was a love-fraud; New Men–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–February 1995, Part 3
  • Meeting Cugan (Hubby)–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–February 1995, Part 2
  • NVLD vs. Aspergers: Videos to explain
  • If you want progressive change, you have to VOTE
  • Reblog: Ingrid Schlueter–yet another blogger threatened with defamation lawsuit
  • Life on TCB–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–February 1995, Part 1
  • I am out of danger from my abusers: Statute of limitations has run out
  • My stalkers have backed way off
  • New Guy Begging at My Feet–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–January 1995, Part 5
  • It’s now even tougher to sue abuse bloggers for defamation: Court Decision
  • We Hook Up to the Internet–and Shawn Fixates on My Sex Life–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–January 1995, Part 4
  • Reblog: Invisible Victims: Men in Abusive Relationships
  • Two and a half years ago, ….
  • Speak up and tell on your bullies
  • Running my abusers’ e-mail through the narc decoder
  • On Ray Rice: Domestic violence is never justified
  • Warning: Freeloading houseguests could be “legal residents” of your house
  • Recovery from Abuse: A Fun, Peaceful Evening Spent with Real Friends
  • The Teddy-O Incident; Birth of These Memoirs–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–January 1995, Part 3
  • Response to mansplaining denials of sexual harassment
  • Reblog: 5 Sneaky things Narcissists do to take advantage of you
  • Reblog: Are the wealthy too rich?
  • Reblog: Yelling and Swearing at Children is Emotional Child Abuse
  • As I revise and sticky old posts on abuse, I realize: Now it’s about the writing
  • Goewin the Bard
  • Celtic Class: Knotwork, Tin Whistles, SCA–and Drinking from a Skull–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–January 1995, Part 2
  • When our abusers get honored: Dang newspaper tells me about my abusers
  • Blog Recommendation: Why are women so mean to each other?
  • Wondering just how many of Richard’s stories were lies….
  • On Child Abuse: Alex Grenier’s “Parents don’t hurt your kids in the name of Jesus”
  • Yes, some women also abuse men
  • A Date with the Vampire–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–January 1995, Part 1
  • Meeting the Vampire, Part 2–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–December 1994, Part 5
  • Meeting the Vampire, Part 1–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–December 1994, Part 4
  • My struggles with reading comprehension: Another sign of NVLD
  • The pain of cutting even abusers from your life
  • What College Kids Do With Snow–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–December 1994, Part 3
  • Our kitty has cancer :(
  • And one more lie from Wormtongue falls crashing to the ground (gaslighting)
  • Phil Spreads Lies About Me–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–December 1994, Part 2
  • Moving On and Meeting the Vampire–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–December 1994, Part 1
  • Phariseeism in the Church
  • Seether’s new song: about the personality-disordered
  • Pregnancy Scare–for real this time–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–November 1994, Part 6
  • Persephone confronts me about the letter–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–November 1994, Part 5
  • Happy to see my posts on child abuse making a difference
  • My psycho blog stalker trolls are even more psycho stalkery
  • The Richard and Tracy story is finished at last!
  • New definitions: Did Phil rape me?–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–November 1994, Part 4
  • Remember: Nasty people bring ostracism on themselves
  • People connecting with my posts, makes it all worth it….
  • Breaking up with Charles–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–November 1994, Part 3
  • “Kingdom Come”: Left Behind Review, Part 4–Prudes, Faulty Theology, Brainwashing, and Learning to Love the Judgment
  • I confront Phil about his abuse–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–November 1994, Part 2
  • Struggling to move on despite the pain–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–November 1994, Part 1
  • Fury at Phil stalking me and rubbing my face in his new relationship–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–October 1994, Part 11
  • “Kingdom Come”: Left Behind Review, Part 3–Egypt’s Rich History is Now Declared an Abomination
  • Wait–What? A sudden spike in hits to my blog
  • Poem about being stalked by Phil–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–October 1994, Part 10
  • “Kingdom Come”: Left Behind Review, Part 2–Old Testament Law Reinstated; Millennium’s Totalitarian Government Cracks Down on Thought-Crimes
  • I feel stalked by ex Phil–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–October 1994, Part 9
  • Friends tell me Phil is controlling–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–October 1994, Part 8
  • Fighting the Darkness: Slightly shaken at church today
  • I start dating Charles–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–October 1994, Part 7
  • “Kingdom Come”: Left Behind Review, Part 1–Where the Old Testament Law is Reinstated
  • Phil shows my letter to his friends; I’m triggered by reminder of forced oral sex–College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke–October 1994, Part 6
  • Bumper sticker seen on a car at McDonalds today:
  • My letter to Phil, Part 2–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–October 1994, Part 5
  • My letter to Phil, Part 1–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–October 1994, Part 4
  • I return Phil’s things and he skewers me; consolation from friends–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–October 1994, Part 3
  • “Soul Ties”–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–October 1994, Part 2
  • My friends tell me Phil is psychotic–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–October 1994, Part 1
  • “The Rapture”: Left Behind Review, Part 3
  • Pump Up the Volume, students: Don’t let them silence you
  • Fierce anger against Phil and PTSD from the abuse–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–The Long, Dark Painful Tunnel, Part 15
  • Different kinds of abuse–same feelings: How Mark Driscoll reminds me of Tracy, Phil, and others
  • So Chris has re-friended me on Facebook….
  • Phil walks away from me again–because I dare to have my own mind, opinions and needs–and because he’s a sociopath–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–The Long, Dark Painful Tunnel, Part 14
  • Phil demands my complete submission and forces me into oral sex–and my will is broken, for fear he’ll divorce me again–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–The Long, Dark Painful Tunnel, Part 13
  • Phil comes crawling back to me–and we put our marriage on paper–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–The Long, Dark Painful Tunnel, Part 12
  • Why we went to Iraq twice: It really WAS for oil
  • Phil the narcissist admits to manipulating people and using them as pawns in his game with me–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–The Long, Dark Painful Tunnel, Part 11
  • “The Rapture”: Left Behind Review, Part 2
  • How Minnesota’s liberal policies are doing what Walker only claims to do
  • Attack of Phil’s Flying Monkey and Sycophant: Dirk (Part 2)–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–The Long, Dark Painful Tunnel, Part 10
  • Attack of Phil’s Flying Monkey and Sycophant: Dirk (Part 1)–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–The Long, Dark Painful Tunnel, Part 9
  • Cribbage, Richard’s ongoing legacy, and long live the Forum
  • Phil cuts off contact–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–The Long, Dark Painful Tunnel, Part 8
  • Phil refuses to accept responsibility for the divorce–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–The Long, Dark Painful Tunnel, Part 7
  • “The Rapture”: Left Behind Review, Part 1 (also goes into smacking kids upside the head)
  • Our rescue kitty has been adopted
  • My friends tell me that Phil is controlling and possessive; My first Pentecostal church service: They speak in tongues–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–The Long, Dark Painful Tunnel, Part 6
  • Phil wants a divorce–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–The Long, Dark Painful Tunnel, Part 5
  • Phil vanishes without a word of why–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–The Long, Dark Painful Tunnel, Part 4
  • Fighting the Darkness: A little thing that made me almost tear up….
  • I’m ecstatic to be back with my friends (the ones Phil hates); I meet Charles–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–The Long, Dark Painful Tunnel, Part 3
  • Gaining Confidence Through Writer’s Club
  • My husband Phil, Dave and Pearl call me a party pooper for getting a Grade II concussion–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–The Long, Dark Painful Tunnel, Part 2
  • Phil picks fights and avoids responsibilities to make me feel like a shrew–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–The Long, Dark Painful Tunnel, Part 1
  • Hints that Phil is checking out of the marriage–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–August 1994, Part 6
  • Pearl reveals that Phil is costing me social invitations–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–August 1994, Part 5
  • Phil says if he abuses me, it takes two people to sign the divorce papers–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–August 1994, Part 4
  • A post to make my blogging worthwhile
  • Phil Mindscrews Me: changes history, blames me for things that were not my fault, treats me like an idiot during games–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–August 1994, Part 3
  • How Phil’s behavior fit the signs of abuse–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–August 1994, Part 2
  • The lies unravel as Phil admits to conning me; also, fright as my periods turn wacky–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–August 1994, Part 1
  • Phil’s “subconscious” explains why he’s coming out to talk to me–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–July 1994, Part 5
  • Things to make you go hmmmm….
  • Here’s the stray kitty we rescued….
  • The healing of getting it all out
  • Phil’s cruel hoax on me: his “subconscious” coming out to be with me–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–July 1994, Part 4
  • The Snuggle House in Madison: How sad to see this close because of closed minds
  • So I’m actually getting followers….
  • Phil tries to control me through refusing everything I want–even proper hygiene–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–July 1994, Part 3
  • Just creeped out the hubby….
  • Phil rapes me anally–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–July 1994, Part 2
  • The Domestic Abuse Worsens in the Summer of Hell–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–July 1994, Part 1
  • Sweeet: Fellow NLDers who like my NVLD page
  • Advice for WordPress users who cannot access domain or cPanel
  • Phil’s Mr. Hyde comes out: controlling, manipulative, verbally and emotionally abusive–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–June 1994, Part 6
  • Yet More Validation to Writing My Stories of Abuse
  • Phil cuts down whatever is special to me (Bits of Abuse Here and There)–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–June 1994, Part 5
  • So glad the little kitty is safe and warm….
  • Fear-Mongering in Wisconsin over Common Core turns even more ridiculous
  • Using Natural Family Planning (Bits of Abuse Here and There)–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–June 1994, Part 4
  • NVLD: I just don’t understand people
  • Discovering long-forgotten psychological abuse and attempted sexual assaults in my college memoirs
  • My son’s pet finches: love at first sight
  • Reblog: “ObamaCare opposition group “Pray in Jesus Name Project” won’t let facts cure their blind stupidity!!!”
  • WPR: Homelessness Down Nationally But Up In Wisconsin | Wisconsin Public Radio
  • Reblog on how Walker’s policies are driving off teachers
  • Phil’s fake dreams lead to a terrible fight (Gaslighting, Bits of Abuse Here and There)–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–June 1994, Part 3
  • I want to change the focus of my posts….
  • Re-evaluating if I had PTSD or Complex-PTSD
  • Phil’s crappy jobs cause depression (Bits of Abuse Here and There)–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–June 1994, Part 2
  • More support for keeping diaries and saving letters/e-mails: to defend against gaslighting from abusers and narcissists
  • Reblog: The End of the Narcissistic Friendship
  • Be Brave and Tell Your Abuse Story: “The victim who articulates the situation of the victim is no longer a victim; he or she is a threat.”
  • Oh Stalkers, Why Do You Creep? (To Creepy Blog Stalkers)
  • Reblog: Cherilyn Clough: Is It Un-Christian to Go No Contact?
  • Losing my wisdom teeth (Bits of Abuse Here and There)–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–June 1994, Part 1
  • Reblog: Money, Snobs and Narcissists
  • Reblog: Why Not Train a Child? (Proving that the Pearls advocate child abuse)
  • Summer Shockers–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–May 1994, Part 3
  • Our Flight: forced into deception–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–May 1994, Part 2
  • New Evidence that NVLD is not the same as Aspergers: Brain Scans
  • Phil’s Nervous Breakdown–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–May 1994, Part 1
  • Reblog: Select Committee on Common Core State Standards–Not Crazy
  • Article: Life and Death in Your Hands: Strangulation more common in domestic abuse cases
  • Hemorrhage and excruciating pain after first time: My Secret Marriage to Phil, Part 2–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–April 1994, Part 6
  • Reblog: The Misinformation is Absolutely Stunning–Proposed Housing Ordinances in Fond du Lac
  • My Secret Marriage to Phil, Part 1–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–April 1994, Part 5
  • Greek Orthodox Resources on Domestic Violence
  • “The Queen and King”: A blog about growing up with borderline and narcissist parents
  • Castles in the air–including plans to live on a desert island–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–April 1994, Part 4
  • Saving your letters is not one bit “creepy”: one of the ways I got gaslighted
  • Phil tries to force me to obey him–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–April 1994, Part 3
  • Minnesota embraces health care law, regulates rates; Wisconsin disses law, lets market decide; guess who got the higher premiums?
  • Rachel Held Evans: All Sorts of Links on Abuse
  • Reblog: Abuse Survivors–Please Share Your Story
  • Rock music is cathartic: Or, songs that scream out my rage against my stalkers
  • Phil tries to guilt me into changing religion–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–April 1994, Part 2
  • “Married to a Borderline” Blog
  • Phil and I get engaged–after two months–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–April 1994, Part 1
  • “Gender-Identity and Expression”: Let’s add this to our anti-discrimination ordinances!
  • Letter to Editor: Vigilance needed about child abuse
  • Awesome post about how dark times (such as being stalked) inspire good writing
  • Reblog: Explaining how to tell true from fake victims
  • Narcissists/Abusers: Will they be the same with somebody else, or is it just me?
  • 7 Years of Orthodoxy; struggles in continuing; should I stay Orthodox?
  • More success raising our boy without spanking/hitting/slapping
  • Platonic opposite-sex friends without jealous spouses…Or, Saw an old friend for lunch yesterday
  • Milwaukee Campaign Slashes Teen Birth Rates in Half in Seven Years
  • Carolyn Hax: Deciding when to call the police/CPS; Seeing abuser again; socializing with abusive spouse of a friend
  • We make wedding plans, more of Phil’s fake dreams–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–March 1994, Part 4
  • So now it’s time for my son to start sex ed…..
  • Should bloggers reveal the names of their abusers? Should I reveal mine right here in a big expose’?
  • More evidence of NVLD: doing miserably on an all-logic IQ test
  • Fighting the Darkness: Coming out of the darkness, or, life without narcissists
  • My son’s pet flock of finches
  • Phil’s Emotional Manipulation and Gaslighting Begin in Full Force–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–March 1994, Part 3
  • Article “Domestic Violence Strikes Home”
  • “The Regime”: Left Behind Review, Part 3 (also goes into narcissism, and shyness)
  • On venting to others about husband/wife, ie, how Richard put me into an impossible position
  • Reblog: STOP CHILD ABUSE!
  • “Surviving the Cycle: UW-FdL Play Tackles Domestic Violence”
  • Controversial Play (Uncommon Women) Tears the School Apart–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–March 1994, Part 2
  • “The Regime”: Left Behind Review, Part 2
  • Left Behind Novel “Rapture” Portrays Child Abuser as Godly Woman
  • “The Regime”: Left Behind Review, Part 1
  • Another website on toxic people in the church
  • Reblog: Making your abuse story into God’s glory in your life
  • Song for my narcissistic stalkers: Free by VAST
  • Whiteheart Concert–Phil Meets Shawn–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–March 1994, Part 1
  • Reblog: Introverts and NLD
  • Excellent blog post for victims of abuse who are told they “deserved” it
  • Article on how to confront an abuser
  • An Excellent Article on Emotional Abuse
  • Carolyn Hax (and the “nutterati”) Stick It to a Jealous Girlfriend
  • Proof my stalkers have backed off from trying to intimidate me
  • Another Pre-Engagement–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–February 1994, Part 7
  • Another person who gets why we blog about our abuse/stalking experiences
  • Still more evidence of NVLD
  • Phil Gaslights Me with Fake Dreams, Ridicule and Psychological Abuse–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–February 1994, Part 6
  • Eulogy to my Grandma
  • How and when I first realized Richard was a false friend
  • It’s Gone. The Depression is Gone!
  • Phil Tries to Control my Friendships, Unfair Accusations from his Dad and Brother–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–February 1994, Part 5
  • Getting better at recognizing the disordered
  • More Evidence of NVLD….
  • Standing up to Damaging Advice and Overcoming Trauma Directives (Reblog from Emerging From Broken)
  • Blogs Murmur to Each Other Like the Aedificium
  • Slapping Kids Upside the Head Causes Traumatic Brain Injury
  • Nature as Balm for the Soul
  • Idealizing Phase and Early Sign of Control–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–February 1994, Part 4
  • More information on hypnotism used by narcissists
  • Struggling to Trust Again After Being Discarded by Loved Ones
  • Controversy over Alisa Valdes; Why I Share My Life Publicly; Signs of Abuse; Women Abusing Men
  • Sentencing of Madison Mother Who Starved Her Child
  • What an age we live in!
  • Reblog: The Narc and Male Friends
  • The Drunken Stork (Phil’s Controlling Nature Manifests)–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–February 1994, Part 3
  • Trudging Through Five and a Half Years of Hell…..Do I See Light Up Ahead? (Surviving Depression After Abuse)
  • My stalkers are persistent little buggers, just visited yesterday, but I’m not afraid of seeing them here anymore:…..
  • Big Red Flag: Phil’s Dysfunctional Family Life–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–February 1994, Part 2
  • Examples of Child Abuse
  • Spring Classes–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–February 1994, Part 1
  • Zimmerman’s expression is just like Richard’s November 2011 mug shots
  • On smear campaigns from the abuser…and victims speaking out
  • Stepping out of my comfort zone: Writers’ Club
  • Reblog: Ten Ways to Freedom From Narcissists
  • Is it worthwhile blocking your blog stalkers?
  • Hitting Kids Upside the Head is ABUSE
  • Reblogs: Confronting Friend About Significant Other; About Responsibility for Others’ Emotions
  • On Women Getting Over Upsets
  • Film Class; I Spend a Night with Phil–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–January 1994, Part 2
  • Finally healing from the narcissistic abuse and toxic friendship
  • Victory for Gay Rights: Supreme Court Ruling on DOMA
  • Parents, DON’T beat your children!
  • Let’s be Open and Free with our Opposite-Sex Friends
  • He Can’t Decide Between the Girl he Wants and the Girl he Doesn’t–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–January 1994, Part 1
  • Are my stalkers starting to leave me alone after all?
  • Reblog: Photo Essay Shows How Abusers Manipulate Victims
  • “The Rising”: Left Behind Review
  • Links to help for abusive friendships
  • I Have Won this Game with the Narcissists
  • An Awesome Resource for those who suffer from narcissists in the church
  • I sense another wave of narcissistic attack coming my way…..
  • Jeff Dunn’s “Playing God with Tornadoes,” and trying to hold to faith when filled with doubt
  • On Fearing Lawsuits When Writing Memoirs About Abuse
  • Reblog: A Writer’s Guide to Defamation and Invasion of Privacy
  • Progress Report on Inching Along with Healing Over Cluster B Abuse
  • Triggered by Tonight’s Breaking Amish: Kim raging at Sabrina: Reminder of Cluster B Rages
  • Reblog: Toxic Friendships: When is a friend more trouble than he or she is worth?
  • Extroverts bullying introverts; also, Letting go of Richard because he could not accept me as an introvert
  • Reblog: “Do Sociopaths and Narcissists Have Rules?”
  • That Fateful First Date with Phil; Complication: A Rival; Call from Shawn!; Another Meeting with Peter–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–December 1993, Part 2
  • So my blog stalkers are still stalking…..First Anniversary of Being “Found”
  • Defanging the Narcissist
  • Dodging a Bullet: Friends of Narcissists Who Are Also Narcissists: Or, Discovery on Richard’s Friend Chris
  • That Fateful First Date with Phil; Praying for the Buildings–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–December 1993, Part 1
  • And Today Was a Good Day….
  • Reblog: “How I Fell for a Narcissist”
  • Cosmo Article on Domestic Violence in the Workplace
  • A return to a peaceful spirit as my stalkers are defanged at last; also, glad to see my blog back!
  • Take Care Before Signing “Contracts” to Volunteer at a Church….. (Spiritual Abuse)
  • New Dating Prospects: Phil and Mike–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–November 1993, Part 2
  • …Because slapping kids on the head is ABUSE! STOP THE VIOLENCE!
  • How my narcissists craved attention
  • A Mass of Judgments in “Glorious Appearing”: Left Behind Review–part 3
  • Taking Back My Power At Last
  • Reading The Brothers Karamazov
  • Reflections on Emily Yoffe’s article: Why I keep perseverating on the abuse, and why forgiving the abusers may be unneeded
  • Seeing Phil in a Play, Seance Makes Contact, Car Accident–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–November 1993, Part 1
  • A proud parenting moment today–proving that screaming and beating children is unnecessary
  • Another Example of Abuser Playing the Victim: Man Blows Up at Judge for Sentence
  • Maybe this time the stalkers will stay away?
  • Reblog from Light’s House: Narcissists are Two-Faced, Vindictive, Smear People Who Oppose Them, Etc.
  • Intimidation of Abuse Bloggers
  • Wasted Years Mourning a Narcissist: Reclaiming Our Lost Selves and Thriving
  • Spanking, Discipline and Physical Abuse: ie, Spanking Does Not Work
  • Princess Fi is Being Silenced About Her Molesters! This is an Outrage!
  • More Support of me having the right to go to the church when abused
  • Reblog: “Narcissistic Rage and Narcissistic Injury: What You Need to Know”
  • The Fateful First Meeting of Phil; The Birth of Dolphin Philosophy; Our Group of Friends Splits Apart–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–October 1993, Part 2
  • FOUR Resurrections in “Glorious Appearing”: Left Behind Review–part 2
  • My blog post ended up in the Lawsuit Archive for Julie Anne’s blog :)
  • Marking another anniversary: abuse reports; my story of reporting child abuse; also, take courage when you witness child abuse
  • “Am I therefore become your enemy, because I tell you the truth?”–Galatians 4:16
  • Poem: Killing the pain of loving a narcissist
  • Carpe Diem: Re-Watching Dead Poets Society
  • Raising Children Successfully Without Abuse, Spanking, Violence or Screaming
  • The Hypnotism Conversation with Richard: Things Narcissists Do
  • Freaked Out by Near-Miss This Morning
  • Catching FLEAS from Narcissists and Abusers
  • Research Against Helicoptering Parents
  • Why Americans Should Demand Socialized Medicine
  • Erotic Vampire Dream; Letter to Shawn; I Ask Out James; Peter Calls!–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–October 1993, Part 1
  • The Erotic Gore-Fest of “Glorious Appearing”: Left Behind Review–part 1
  • “As I Write, You Disappear”
  • Is it okay to be jealous of the opposite-sex friends of my spouse/boyfriend/girlfriend?
  • Why not to let your spouse tell you to stop being friends with somebody: Rethinking the Importance of Friendship vs. Erotic Love in Our Society
  • The Tea Party: a pawn for the Koch Brothers
  • Charlie Peacock Concert; Random Stories–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–September 1993, Part 5
  • Deceived: About Toxic “Best” Friends
  • Seeing Abuser is Rough for Abuse Victims, Especially When Abusers & Enablers Blame the Victim: Annie’s Mailbox
  • Guide to Understanding the Introverted
  • Washington Post: “Let’s Just Say It: The Republicans Are the Problem.”
  • Working on Releasing the Anger/Pain/Depression Toward My Stalkers
  • So the Scouts are now considering whether to allow gays. I think it’s awesome if they do: No more official discrimination/bigotry.
  • My Own Son Thinks I’m Weird! Sigh….. :)
  • Rat-Obsessed Teacher and Doctor Zhivago; A Teacher Dated a Student; InterVarsity Fun–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–September 1993, Part 4
  • Toxic Friendships: Unfriend: Breaking up is hard to do–especially when it comes to friends
  • Svengalis, Love Bombing, Hypnotism, and Narcissists
  • Trauma Bonding: This must be my problem with breaking the connection to my stalkers
  • Poisonous Friend: Dedicated to my Stalkers
  • Exposing Narcissists/Abusers: Why We Should Do It
  • Reblog: Bullying, Chasing Pavements, and Asperger Syndrome
  • Reblog: Conspiracy Theories, Autism, Fear, and Life on the Crazy Train
  • Wow, a whole blog post (on Cry for Justice) based on a comment I made one night….
  • Psycho Roommates and Bug Wars, Return of Rick, Adjusting to New Dorm, Spitball-Throwing Teacher–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–September 1993, Part 3
  • Trying to Explain the Wreck of My Faith to a Worried Husband
  • Freaked out by spotting my blog stalker on the street just now
  • Shawn Calls; Living with Friends in Krueger; Funny Library Stories–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–September 1993, Part 2
  • Selective Mutism: Disorder or Extroverts Pathologizing Introverts?–Examining the Natural and Childhood Sources of my Quietness
  • On Lost Friendship, God, Hell, and Repentance
  • BGBC: Chuck O’Neal’s Counter-Blog Proves Julie Anne Smith is Telling the Truth
  • Classmate a stand-in for “Rudy,” Jigging at College Dance, Library Tales, Happiness Returns–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–September 1993, Part 1
  • Why Not to Rush a Victim’s Recovery From Abuse
  • It’s Perfectly Normal to Dread Seeing Abusers Again
  • My book “The Lighthouse” just got chosen for a little book club
  • Anne Lamott and others on telling your abuse story
  • Why post abuse stories? (Was: Wondering if my blog stalkers will read about Phil now….)
  • Precognitive Dreams of Phil Before I Met Him–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–Summer 1993
  • More Links on Narcissism
  • Working on Healing from Richard and Tracy’s Damage…Day by Day, Crawling Upwards
  • Jealousy Leads to Murder
  • How Extrovert Misunderstanding Turns Into Abuse–And Why Introverts/Extroverts Need to UNDERSTAND Each Other
  • Men Don’t Tell…About Being Abused
  • Myths and Realities of Domestic Abuse Against Men
  • Clarissa & Sociopathy
  • What a City This Is….
  • The EAA: Document Your Abuse So Your Abuser Can Be Caught/Prosecuted
  • Identifying a Narcissistic Sociopath: Paula’s Pontifications
  • NO MORE Domestic Violence & Sexual Assault
  • Why My Stalkers’ Threat is Bogus: Going to my Priest is Well Within My Rights
  • Toxic Mix of Abusers and Introverts
  • Washington Times Article on Abuse Blogs Just Like Mine
  • Shawn Breaks Our Friendship and Departs; The Pump Blows Up; Learning Spanish–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–May 1993
  • St. Maximos: What separates us from the love of friends….
  • Introverts Are Born That Way
  • Female Friends Chased Off by Controlling Girlfriends/Wives: I’m Not the Only One: Monday’s Annie’s Mailbox
  • Defamation and the Abuse Blogger: I’m Safe and Here’s Why
  • Hoping Asperger’s Does Not Get Linked to Newtown Tragedy
  • High caseloads, regulations dog state child abuse investigators
  • Tracy’s Screaming Was Like This and It Frightened Me
  • An Abuser’s Lies Are Demonic
  • Shawn Leaves: His Brother Turns Deathly Ill; My Humiliation as Rachel Exposes How the Sorority Abused Me–College Memoirs–April 1993, Part 2
  • My Husband, Marvin the Paranoid Android
  • Workplace Bullying Leads to Suicide of Gentle, Quiet Man
  • A Good Day for Healing from Abuse
  • Why I Blog About My Depression–Even While Watched by the Ones Who Caused It (My Blog Stalkers)
  • Wives Abusing Husbands, Husbands Abusing Wives
  • Journey to Healing: Things Are Looking Up Socially…..
  • Never Be Bullied Into Silence. Speak Up About Abuse!
  • Poking Fun at Creepy Blog Stalkers
  • Reblog: Abuse as it Affects People with Asperger’s Syndrome and Autism
  • In Honor of Child Abuse Remembrance
  • Break the Silence on Women Abusing Men!
  • Abuser Says ‘I Haven’t Done Anything Wrong’: Typical Abuser Claim
  • (Facebook post 2011) Too many men are too scared to leave their abusive wives….Erin Pizzey explains why she loathes feminism: childhood abuse from mother
  • My Struggles with Infertility
  • Just Had Another Dream About Richard….I wake up and it’s just a dream….I Hate These Things
  • Ending Friends-with-Benefits for Good–After One Last Time; I Meet Rick, My Admirer From Afar–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–April 1993, Part 1
  • For All Abused Spouses, Male or Female, Post Answering “Why Didn’t You Leave,” Recovery/Getting Out, Abuse Against Husbands/Boyfriends
  • Declaration of Freedom From Tracy’s Power Over Me
  • Example of Stockholm Syndrome
  • Another Survivor Whose Abuser Found Her Blog
  • Just found a blog by someone in my situation: struggling to get over an N friend
  • Why I Struggle to Let Go of Richard; Also, Musings on NVLD/Asperger’s
  • My Translation of a French Section of a Letter From Peter Abelard to Heloise
  • Spring Break; My Drawings of Ann Radcliffe Characters; I’m Cold to Shawn and it Bugs Him; the Power Goes Out–and the Water–in an Ice Storm–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke: Or, How NVLD Affected My Life–March 1993, Part 2
  • Shawn Rips Me Apart for NVLD traits; School Scandal–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–March 1993, Part 1
  • As I Witnessed, Abusers Control Spouse’s Friends/Family
  • Why Abuse Victims *Should* Blog
  • Grief Continues Over False Friend
  • “The Juvenilization of American Christianity”: Orthodox Observer, Christianity Today
  • Sexual Relations with Shawn (sexual user): The Downward Spiral to a Crash; Counseling–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–February 1993, Part 2
  • SWEET! Obama is Re-Elected!
  • Blogging as Therapy for the Abused/Bullied: Beginning to Heal from Richard/Tracy Stuff
  • Sign of Sociopathy: Taking Pleasure in the Pain of Others; I’ve Seen It Many Times; Why It’s Okay to Be Angry About Bullying
  • ReBlog: Bloggers’ Rights
  • How I can vote pro-choice without changing my mind about abortions
  • Foreshadowing Orthodox and Calvinist Doctrines: Philosophical and Religious Background of the Birth of Christianity: Reading “Early Christian Doctrines” by JND Kelly
  • Spring Classes; Crush on a Teacher; Lit Teacher Becomes My Writing Mentor; “Ugh” Poem–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–February 1993, Part 1
  • Realizing I Was Used and Manipulated by My “Best” Friend Richard: The Proof Is In The E-Mail
  • Quotes and blogs by people stalked by narcissists/abusers
  • My Abusers’ Threats are Empty and Extortion
  • For Fellow Bloggers of Abuse/Narcissistic Experiences: Dealing with Gaslighting Legal Threats
  • Corruption in the Campus Administration; Pregnancy Scare–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–January 1993, Part 2
  • The Dangers of Leaving an Abuser: the Milwaukee Shooting
  • Center provides safe place to interview abused children
  • Just took a Narcissist Quiz….I am so totally not a narcissist.
  • Wow, somebody’s going to quote one of my book reviews
  • Reblog by Linda Holmes: Disposable Friendships in Modern Society; Opposite-Sex Friends (Assumed to be Lovers); Friendship Getting Respect; Friendship Breakups
  • I finally got myself a three-bar cross: My Orthodox conversion is complete! ;) (convertitis)
  • Parent-Teacher Conference: Our Kid’s a “Crazy Inventor”
  • Irish Writers Class; Psychological Hell as Shawn Turns Dark and Moody (sexual user)–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–January 1993, Part 1
  • Poem about abuse: The Fire Elemental (About Richard/Tracy)
  • Poems of Werewolves and Longing (The Beast of Backbiting); Reading Clarissa, My Drawings of Her–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–December 1992, Part 3
  • Werewolf: The Beast of Backbiting
  • “I promise not to oppress you with too much remorse or too much passion, though since you left us the white rose bush has died of grief.”
  • Confronting Shawn’s Psychological Abuse; A Proposed Cool-Off–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–December 1992, Part 2
  • Richard: The Collateral Damage
  • The Fire Burns Hotter; The Dreadful Night (Shawn Almost Goes Too Far); Accidents Will Happen–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–December 1992, Part 1
  • Selective Mutism Strikes at a Zeta Party; Peter Turns the Screws–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–November 1992, Part 2
  • Emotional Blackmail
  • Shawn Goes Animal-House on me During my Shower; Obscene Phone Caller–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–November 1992, Part 1
  • Anniversary of the fall of a spiritual mentor
  • We’re Dating!–No, We’re Not. Yes, We Are. ACK!–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–October 1992, Part 4
  • Ill-Fated Pledge Class–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–October 1992, Part 3
  • The Secret Gets Out–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–October 1992, Part 2
  • Friends With Sexual Benefits: Fun at First, But Began to Destroy our Friendship: College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–October 1992, Part 1
  • Friendship with Peter?–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–September 1992, Part 4
  • Shawn Screws With My Head–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–September 1992, Part 3
  • Frustrating German Teacher–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–September 1992, Part 2
  • Reblog on whether abusers are truly Christians: Repentance and Abuse: Real Repentance Bears Fruit
  • Back to School: My Friends and Job–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–September 1992, Part 1
  • Reblog: Alice Miller: Concerning Forgiveness: The Liberating Experience of Painful Truth
  • Brian and Shyeskol: An Earthling and Martian Love Story
  • My Pictures of Martians: Middle School
  • My Martian Alphabet and Rosetta Stone
  • My Mental/Visual/Touch Stimming: Could it be Asperger’s?
  • On the Fear of Driving: Why I First Looked Into NVLD
  • Story: The Last Night: Romance on a Rome-like Planet
  • St. John’s Abbey’s Bible: First Handwritten, Illuminated Bible Since the Printing Press
  • Repost: You Don’t Have to Dance for Them: Roles (How we bloggers have narcissists in different roles)
  • Solace in books and creativity, Pictures of my genie Zara–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–Summer 1992
  • Freedom from Richard’s Political Stranglehold
  • Reblog: Pastors and Abuse: Confronting and Dealing With Abusers (All Parts Together)
  • More Stuff From Crying Out for Justice Blog
  • Re-blog: Pastors and Abuse: Confronting and Dealing With Abusers (Part 7)
  • The Pain of Being In/Watching Destructive Marriages, Domestic Violence and Stockholm Syndrome
  • From Emerging From Broken: How Victim Mentality works in Relation to Family Secrets
  • Links to My Favorite Single Dad Laughing blog posts about abuse and bullying
  • About Emerging From Broken: The Confusion Created around Forgiveness Issues
  • Wife Vs. Secretary: Musings on Jealousy
  • From Emerging From Broken: Forgive the Abusers? A bit of a Rant
  • Today’s Fun: Highland Games, Weird Friends
  • From Emerging From Broken: Why Setting Personal Boundaries is Not as Easy as it Sounds
  • You Don’t Have to Dance for Them: Moving On
  • You Don’t Have to Dance for Them: The Beauty of Blogging
  • You Don’t Have to Dance for Them: Wrong Tree
  • You Don’t Have to Dance for Them: Lucky
  • Needing to Feel Safe: Going to same church as abusers
  • Desperate Measures–When Abusers Sense They’re Losing Their Grip on You (About a Luke173 Ministries Article)
  • Verbal Abuse
  • Understanding the Abused
  • Toxic Friendships/Relationships
  • Stopping Abuse/ Helping Abused Friend, Family Member, Co-worker, Child
  • Recovery From Abuse/Getting Out
  • Physical Abuse
  • Personal Stories of Abuse
  • Narcissists
  • If You’ve Been Reported to CPS
  • Getting Into the Psyche of the Abuser
  • Gaslighting
  • Emotional Abuse
  • Domestic Abuse (anyone who lives together or is in a romantic relationship, including roommates or family members)
  • Child Abuse
  • Bullying
  • Borderline Personality Disorder
  • Abuse Specifically Against Husbands/Boyfriends
  • Abuse (General)
  • Wondering if NVLD is hereditary
  • De Profundis: Oscar Wilde on toxic friendship–Part 2
  • Isolation of Abuse Victims
  • Existential Crisis and Despair: Loss of God and Friendship (dedicated to Richard)
  • As for my two blog stalkers…..
  • Quirky “Friendship” with Shawn Heats Up Again–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–May 1992
  • Musings on Researching NVLD; Link to Newsgroup
  • Obsessed With Old Shows From Childhood–The Hunt Continues
  • Peter’s Smear Campaign–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–April 1992
  • Shawn: Just Friends (with Benefits) or Dating?–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–March 1992, Part 2
  • Shawn: Just Friends or Dating?–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–March 1992, Part 1
  • Left Behind Review: Armageddon
  • Another Blogger Who Refused to Back Down From Abusers’ Threats
  • Shawn Makes His Move–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–February 1992, Part 2
  • The Great Zipper Caper–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–February 1992, Part 1
  • How my emotional trauma proves the abuse–and I realize Richard conned me
  • A Breakup with Probable NVLD–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–January 1992, Part 2
  • A Breakup with Probable NVLD–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–January 1992, Part 1
  • Blogs by People with NVLD or Asperger’s
  • Ride the Greyhound–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–December 1991
  • Fighting the Darkness: Breaking the Power of Narcissists
  • I Tell the Forum and Friends That Richard and Tracy Are Stalking Me
  • The Relief of Being With Friends Who Do Not Abuse You
  • Aurora Borealis, Ghosts and Promises of Marriage–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–November 1991
  • Deadly Nightshade and Pressure to Love–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–October 1991, part 2
  • Peter, My Ninja Boyfriend, Hypnotizes Me and Starts a Mental Link–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–October 1991, part 1
  • Dating a Ninja–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–September 1991, part 5
  • Articles about abuse memoirs and abuse blogs: why we need to write them
  • Campus, People, First College Boyfriend–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–September 1991, part 4
  • The Care and Feeding of Shy People
  • Campus Stories, Wisconsin, Campus Radio Station–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–September 1991, part 3
  • And wave to the stalkers….
  • Orientation & Meeting a Ninja–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–September 1991, part 2
  • A Story-Game From my Childhood: I Was a Moon in the Solar System
  • Meet the Suite–College Memoirs: Life at Roanoke–September 1991, part 1
  • How to Deal With Narcissism in the Church
  • De Profundis: Oscar Wilde on toxic friendship–Part 1
  • Review of Northanger Abbey by Jane Austen
  • Inspiring Story of a Woman Who Told About Abuse
  • Introverts: We Are Fine the Way We Are!
  • I Will NOT Be Silent
  • NVLD: Part 4
  • NVLD: Part 3
  • NVLD: Part 2
  • NVLD: Part 1
  • Personal Abuse Stories
  • Music’s Painful Associations
  • How DARVO could prove which of us is telling the truth
  • New Post by Shrink4Men: The New Face of Borderline Personality Disorder….
  • The Difficulties and Rewards of Breaking Ties with Narcissists/Borderlines
  • Latest Shrink4Men: Winning vs. Taking: What Does Winning Mean to Abusive, High-Conflict and/or Personality Disordered Women?
  • Book Review: Mysteries of Udolpho by Ann Radcliffe–Part 2
  • Book Review: Mysteries of Udolpho by Ann Radcliffe–Part 1
  • I’m not the only blogger who’s been “found” by the abuser
  • Confronting Your Bully/Abuser
  • How Abusers End Up Blaming You
  • This Blog is Shut Down.
  • Links on Narcissism
  • Further abused by my abusers when I stuck up for myself
  • My Answer to Richard and Tracy’s Narcissistic E-mail
  • Richard and Tracy are stalking me online and at church
  • Now I’m Being Stalked.
  • Richard & Tracy Have Been Banned.
  • Excerpt from “Tojet”
  • This Blog is No Longer Safe.
  • To Richard and/or Tracy: Why are you here?
  • Richard and/or Tracy were here.
  • To Richard and Tracy, who are reading my blogs
  • Hm. The abusers found my blog.
  • Recall Primary Tomorrow–and how this nastiness is affecting friendships
  • What if The Abusers Changed?
  • Buy My Books! Buy My Books!
  • My College Memoirs: Life At Roanoke
  • South Dakota Trip, 2001–Chased by Storm-Chasers
  • Left Behind Review: Remnant, Part 2
  • Help from a website on abuse
  • Fighting the Darkness: Fear of Death
  • Fighting the Darkness: Can I Trust Social Services and the Courts?
  • Left Behind Review: Remnant, Part 1
  • Triggers
  • Blogging the Parasite out of my Head: Writing about the abuse
  • Finding out people you love have a dark side
  • Who’s the Neanderthal here?: On Jealousy and Opposite-Sex Friends
  • My boss of 4 years was a narcissist, too, and wound up in jail
  • Whether and when to forgive an abuser
  • On Being Judged for Shyness
  • No epilogue of healing–yet
  • Contemplating the evils of jealousy and abuse
  • Struggling to get past the abuse
  • Was he abused or a narcissist?
  • Richard the child choker
  • Why I could not get over this a**hole
  • Richard is also violent
  • Tracy refuses to apologize
  • Tracy crazy-makes me
  • Tracy’s abuse of Richard and the children
  • Hoarder houseguests
  • Tracy’s need to control everyone
  • Richard gets too friendly
  • Bullied for being shy and quiet
  • The abuser refuses to feel remorse
  • The abuser hangs out of a van window
  • The bullying, abusive wife
  • The elusive bosom friend
  • Losing Your Best Friend?–Or, Narcissistic Webs (Original Version)
  • Fighting the Darkness: Mutual Friends with the Abusers
  • Trip to San Francisco–June 1999–Freaks and Buzzards
  • 1988 Trip to Mammoth Cave–When the Lights Went Out Underground
  • Musings on Incidents in the Life of a Slave Girl–Part 4
  • Musings on Incidents in the Life of a Slave Girl–Part 3
  • Musings on Incidents in the Life of a Slave Girl–Part 2
  • Musings on Incidents in the Life of a Slave Girl–Part 1
  • 2011 Trip to Tennessee–Land of the Appalachians
  • Left Behind Review: Desecration
  • Fighting the Darkness: Newspaper Blurb: Richard’s Conviction (Child Abuse Charges)
  • Fighting the Darkness: Stockholm Syndrome?
  • Fighting the Darkness: Seeing the abuser again
  • Fighting the Darkness: Healing can take a long time (Healing from abuse)
  • After his conviction, Richard comes to my church
  • The Light is Shining Through–Finding Faith Again After the Fall of a Spiritual Mentor: Fighting the Darkness
  • Richard is convicted of choking his daughter
  • I learn that Richard choked his daughter
  • Left Behind: The Mark Review–Part 6 (Last)
  • “The Third Man” and having to report a friend
  • Left Behind: The Mark Review–Part 5
  • I report them to CPS; Richard is charged with abusing his daughter
  • Left Behind: The Mark Review–Part 4
  • Left Behind: The Mark Review–Part 3
  • Realizing how Richard manipulated me into doing things I shouldn’t
  • Describing Richard’s narcissism
  • Then Richard choked his daughter
  • Seeing abuser again: Running into Richard and Tracy at church/the store/Greekfest a year later
  • Left Behind: The Mark Review–Part 2
  • Left Behind: The Mark Review–Part 1
  • Musings
  • Fear of it all happening again with new friends–but relief as well
  • Richard’s lack of action made him a passive abuser
  • Grief felt today over loss of friend
  • Tracy: a woman who abuses a man
  • Three things that scare me….
  • Thinking of celebrating the first anniversary of friendship crash and burn
  • How Richard and Tracy’s views on parenting are wrong
  • The long, dark night of my soul as I doubt God exists–because my spiritual mentor betrayed me
  • I start doubting Tracy was ever truly a Christian–so it’s okay to separate myself from her fellowship
  • Working through the grief, pain and anger
  • Can we destroy something God put in place?
  • An old friend shows me that Richard and Tracy were deceivers, never friends
  • Fighting the Darkness (Depression After Abuse)
  • Left Behind: Indwelling Review–Part 4
  • Musings on how Christians should treat each other
  • Left Behind: Indwelling Review–Part 3
  • Left Behind: Indwelling Review–Part 2
  • Left Behind: Indwelling Review–Part 1
  • Grief that my abusers keep coming to my church but not apologizing to me
  • Gone With the Wind, Part 2
  • I see Tracy hanging out of the window of their minivan, like a crazy woman
  • Gone With the Wind by Margaret Mitchell, Part 1
  • Hope of Future Healing and Moving On from the Abuse
  • Jane Eyre Review–Part 3
  • Jane Eyre Review–Part 2
  • Jane Eyre Review–Part 1
  • Was Richard’s betrayal driven by Narcissism–or Stockholm Syndrome?
  • Crazy For God Review
  • This Present Darkness Review
  • Left Behind: Assassins Review–Part 5
  • Left Behind: Assassins Review–Part 4
  • Left Behind: Assassins Review–Part 3
  • Grief over being abused–and the abuser getting away with it
  • Grief over being falsely accused
  • Left Behind: Assassins Review–Part 2
  • Grief over losing my best and closest friend–for no good reason
  • Tracy tried to force me to submit to her abuse
  • Tracy blamed others for her abuse
  • I refuse to give in to Tracy’s emotional blackmail
  • I suggest a six-month break
  • How Tracy’s e-mails displayed narcissism
  • Left Behind: Assassins Review–Part 1
  • The monster comes back out: Tracy punishes me for long-dead issues
  • About Richard justifying Tracy’s verbal abuse because I am shy and quiet
  • Shock: Richard and Tracy at my church
  • Pondering forgiveness vs. giving in to the dark vortex
  • E-mail to Mike: processing my pain
  • Struggling to process what the F**K just happened
  • I send an apology–and we’re all blocked on Facebook
  • My Bullying Story: Resolving conflict: The difference between friends and frenemies
  • Tracy refused to accept the NVLD and introversion–but they are real
  • Why I refused to “confer” with Tracy–and how Richard betrayed me
  • Why we should not be forced to befriend a BFF’s abusive spouse: My story of abuse
  • E-mails to Todd describing what happened
  • E-mails spilling all the abuse, to my closest friends
  • E-Mails Describing pain of breaking up with a close friend
  • E-Mails to Friends About the Incident, written in first two months
  • Why we should tell everyone we have been abused
  • Part Four: Their DARVO lies lead us to break off relations with our abusers
  • Part Three: Jeff’s WTF moment: Judas (Richard) knows I’m innocent, but psychotically rages at Jeff
  • Part Two: Tracy enjoys verbally abusing me, then tries to silence me–so I tell everyone
  • Part One: Tracy’s narcissistic rage against me–but I am innocent of all her charges
  • Resolution: I apologize–and write the fateful e-mail about the fateful hugs
  • I confront Richard with how he’s been treating me–so he stonewalls me and threatens to beat up my husband
  • Time to scapegoat me into thinking I’m the problem–and I realize my “BFF” is a fraud
  • I feel increasing coldness from Richard and Tracy as I “unfriend” their Republican candidates and “friend” Obama and Feingold
  • Richard rips into me publicly and I suspect our friendship is all a fake
  • Richard grows distant and Tracy’s insane jealousy flares up
  • Richard goes off the deep end and disses us for not buying into his extreme right-wing politics
  • Richard decides I’m no longer worth his time or respect–because of POLITICS–as he gets into the TEA Party
  • I begin to wonder if the Richard I know–is real or a fake persona
  • Without warning or explanation, tensions build as Richard and Tracy both begin acting like lunatics
  • Richard mansplains me, denies that his friends sexually harassed me, and refuses to respect my wishes
  • E-mails proving my innocence, that Tracy lied in July/August 2010, that I respected boundaries, and that I asked for a “signal”
  • We *seem* to have things sorted out–and they *seem* to finally take responsibility for causing drama (but there’s more to come later)
  • Revealing e-mails I drafted to Richard: proving I felt abused and bullied, and witnessed abuse
  • Disturbing Revelations from Richard about Tracy and our time sharing a house
  • Sexual Harassment from some of Richard’s friends
  • Richard gaslights me into thinking I’m a stalker
  • In August 2008, I ponder ending the friendship, but discover Tracy has long since “approved” me
  • Tracy drives away another friend (Todd) with narcissistic rage, manipulation, lies and a smear campaign
  • Now Richard Screws with my Mind
  • I must be accepted as I am–introversion, NVLD and all–or you’re out
  • Tracy Mindscrews me with Constantly Changing Rules, “Okays” me then takes it back without telling me, Violates my Privacy by reading my e-mails to Richard
  • Fed-up, I decide to end the friendship if Tracy does not stop bullying me
  • Tracy is nasty to me on the phone
  • Two Narcissists Tag-Team Bully an Introvert with NLD
  • How to Bully an Introvert–and Assets of NVLD
  • I get an inkling of Richard’s own abuse of his children
  • Early warning signs of Tracy’s abuse and volatility
  • Early 2010: I speak up about Tracy’s child abuse–and ponder reporting her to authorities
  • Left Behind: Apollyon Review–Part 5
  • More details of Tracy’s abuse of her children
  • E-mails and phone call describe how Tracy abuses her husband and children
  • Tracy bullies me and tries to control Richard by weeding out friends she doesn’t like
  • Richard’s past in the Mafia–and his plot to kill the apartment manager
  • More on Richard’s hypnotism–and his narcissistic stare
  • Richard says he hypnotized me without my knowledge
  • My Friend Richard, the Narcissist
  • The emotional vampires suck me dry–and accuse me of being too sensitive
  • Tracy snarks and Richard nitpicks
  • Their doublespeak and double standards
  • Tracy’s unreasonable jealousy even as I take pains to be above reproach
  • I almost break off the friendship because of Tracy
  • Tracy’s smear campaign and emotional blackmail begin full-force
  • Richard gives me the fateful hugs good-bye
  • Left Behind: Apollyon Review–Part 4
  • Verge of nervous breakdown as houseguests from Hell abuse our hospitality
  • Tracy overhears me telling Jeff she’s abusive–and wreaks vengeance with smear campaign
  • Tracy’s control-freak behavior–to me, in my house
  • Tracy’s narcissistic/BPD rage episode at Richard (IN MY HOUSE)–and Richard reveals his own abuse
  • Tracy turns jealous of and hostile toward me because I’m an introvert with NVLD
  • Houseguests From Hell
  • Richard reveals his wife’s abuses
  • Discovering they live in squalor
  • I finally find my Frodo–who moves in
  • I was Sam in search of a Frodo, Anne in search of a Diana
  • Why I put this story on the Web–at great personal risk
  • Richard dismisses my experiences
  • My NVLD in a nutshell
  • Bullying an Introvert and Probable NVLDer
  • Left Behind: Apollyon Review–Part 3
  • Left Behind: Apollyon Review–Part 2
  • Left Behind: Apollyon Review–Part 1
  • Left Behind: Soul Harvest Review–Part 7
  • Left Behind: Soul Harvest Review–Part 6
  • Left Behind: Soul Harvest Review–Part 5
  • Left Behind: Soul Harvest Review–Part 4
  • Left Behind: Soul Harvest Review–Part 3
  • Left Behind: Soul Harvest Review–Part 2
  • Left Behind: Soul Harvest Review–Part 1
  • Left Behind: Nicolae Review–Part 4 (Last)
  • Left Behind: Nicolae Review–Part 3
  • Left Behind: Nicolae Review–Part 2
  • Left Behind: Nicolae Review–Part 1
  • Left Behind: Tribulation Force Review–Part 4
  • Left Behind: Tribulation Force Review–Part 3
  • Left Behind: Tribulation Force Review–Part 2
  • Left Behind: Tribulation Force Review–Part 1
  • Review of Left Behind
  • Nyssa’s Conversion Story–Or, how I discovered Holy Orthodoxy: Part 4
  • Nyssa’s Conversion Story–Or, how I discovered Holy Orthodoxy: Part 3
  • Nyssa’s Conversion Story–Or, how I discovered Holy Orthodoxy: Part 2
  • Plugging My Books
  • Nyssa’s Conversion Story–Or, how I discovered Holy Orthodoxy–Part 1